Thanks, Patrick. I've been talking to my professors, and they understand, but I still need to find a way to learn to get through this. It's almost as if now it's finally hitting me. When it first happened, I was just in shock, but now I realize more and more that he really is gone. I don't want anyone to worry that I'm going to commit suicide or anything, because I am eager and determined to learn to cope with the loss and learn to cherish my love and friendship with my family and friends. If I were to take a year off, I would spend it doing something worthwhile. I've always wanted to travel to Africa and help people there in any way I can. If I can do something fulfilling, I think that might help me out a lot. I've worked out arrangements with a therapist and a few counselors, so I hope I can stick through these hardships and make it through this year strong. I guess I'm not really sticking this out alone because I do have family around, but they seem to be coping with the loss much better than I am. But thank you for your advice, Patrick. I hope I can get over this to the point where I can focus on my own future instead of dreading the sad things that happened in the past.